overwhelmed...

i am feeling so overwhelmed... i have so much worry in my life right now.. so much sadness... i haven't even begun to heal from the passing of my dear friend jimmy Clark, the recent issues in my marriage, and now to day the passing of my great aunt Eva... this has just been one hell of an emotional roller coaster for me.. and i hate roller coasters...  just want off.. i cant even figure out how i am getting myself out of bed any more. seeing my home town the way it was, and now where i lived for the last ten years is under water.. i feel like things are falling down all around me.. i just keep asking god for the strength.. and trying to take it day by day...

Today was one heck of a busy day!

I got up this morning and headed off to get my hair cut.. and of course visit with Jane! Heidi was being a lovely child and amusing herself with George. then we went to morra morra for some coffee... and Heidi got herself a huge, and i mean huge rice crispy treat. then i ran off to Christmas tree shoppes and bought a few things for the house. after that we spent some time at the SGRA headquarters... i am just bushed!! time for bed... tomorrow is going to be just as busy..

Recommend this cook book to everyone!!

Got my new computer/tablet! Yay!

So for the record this thing is totally cool. It runs exactly like my phone with close to all the apps my phone has.. the graphics and speed are much better... But I'm totally hooked!

Pictures from my home town after Irene

this house had been moved and is now sitting on i beams

Due to flooding everyone was throwing stuff out

This is where the house sat

Their porch is gone

more people on the point throwing things away

this house sustained some structural dammage

notice the boat isnt any where near the water

These people had a yard, now all sand

CT

It has been and interesting time here in Connecticut. We arrived around five ish on Friday evening. We stopped off in Clarks Summit, PA... ahhhh... home... and had lunch at the good ol' Sunrise Cafe. I got a chance to visit with my "regulars" and Dawn got a chance to visit with Heidi. When we got to Fairfield there was no power to speak of, and with out power.. it meant no fridge, no food, no milk for Heidi. So off to Penfield beach we went. We had a lovely evening watching the sunset and Heidi enjoyed the swings and the waters edge. It was very picturesque. We got food from the restaurant down there. I thoroughly enjoyed a lobster roll.

When it started getting to be dusk we left the beach and drove down the point. There we found oodles and oodles of people throwing away rugs, furnishings, you name it... all flood damaged, not to mention the four foot high piles of sand that should have been on the beach. It was so utterly depressing to see where I grew up looking like this. The police had the end of the point blocked off so one could not see all the houses that had fallen into the ocean. After this we drove home...

We drove past numerous dark houses.. mom mentioned that she had not stopped for ice in hopes that the power was back... although we left at 6:37 pm and if UI didn't have it fixed by 7 we would have to wait until the next day. As we rounded the corner at Round Hill Rd we took notice to the fact that our ST lights were lit!! Then one more turn and we saw the porch light was on. Mom told us how she had left it on so we would know right away! She was ex tactic! As was I, but for her it was different... she was going on almost six days with out power. Without hot showers... etc... So when we parked I decided to call dad in Lyme, CT and tease him that we had power here and he decided to go to the lake where there was no power... well... I was wrong. I got on the phone with him and he goes, "Yea.. well ours came on here too!" I hang up and tell my mother... who of course can't believe it, thinks dad was messing with me and calls him. He confirms, and we pack everything, and head off to the lake!

The lake was nice, lots of work to get done.. but we had fun. Mom and I did some shopping, while Michael and my Dad rebuilt the shed. (which looks awesome now might I add) Then I took Michael to the airport in Providence, RI. TOTAL BUMMER!!!! But he will be back in seven weeks and I must be patient! At least I have a lovely support network of family and friends!

Trials and tribulations...

the last few days have been a test of will and human spirit... Between insane unmanageable children, to a friend with a diagnosis of schizophrenia who has been terribly bad lately. Not to mention dealing with the knowledge that Michael will be away for 7 months... And how utterly long of a time that will be... Packing, doing laundry, stressing over being in ct with no power, no water and a baby... It's just all so much... I am left awake... At 2:30 am unable to sleep... Dreading what is to come next. I have to drive to ct tomorrow...  Lord knows what conditions the roads will be in... I have seen so many pictures come out of Fairfield and Bridgeport it makes my head swim... My home town... Won't be how I remember it and that depresses the hell out of me. Some people there won't get power restored until a month from now... It's funny the luxuries we all take for granted... *sigh* just not looking forward to my tomorrow at this point...