iN tHe NaMe Of LoVe...: Sooo... i have cable now...

i am almost in danger of becoming one of those people who sit around all day watching TV, getting fat... you know the type of person who i LOATHE. i never got cable before, just seemed like a bad idea, i lived with out it for sooo very long, my parents, of course, got it after i had moved out. they still joined the information age long before i did. its pathetic really. heidi loves her some TV too... at her age, she shouldn't, which is why i am happy that i have the smarts to take time to turn off the mind numbing thing and play with her. i am just dying for winter to go away! i want to be able to walk outside! i miss my stroller walks in the park. (so strange for ME to be saying this as i LOVE winter.. but i guess children change you LOL)

i suppose my biggest issue is that everyone around me is soooo damn miserable! greg because he has but one job and makes like no money. sid because his wife and children hate him and he has no job, no purpose... and... ok... he has every reason to be miserable, but i am not miserable, i am a relatively happy person, or at least i would like to think i was haha. i have all that i could need right here, so... i dunno, maybe its selfish, but i try to shield myself from all the unhappiness, sort of a self preservation sort of thing, i know my brother will get by, he knows what he needs to do. and i know he, unlike sid, will do what ever he has to. i have seen such a wonderful change in him. he is genuinely trying. *sigh* well i digress, now that i have gone of on some tangent that has nothing to do with anything, i guess what i am saying is hell, i need to stop watching tv and do somthing... i just need something more to do! i redecorated my living rm wanna see?? haha.. of course you do...